Since not being at sixth form and being finished with revision, I have found myself in my free time, thinking a lot about the person I am, the type of person I wish to become, and the things that are holding me back. This has bought on numerous memories, remembering past friends and many experiences I have been through which still bring me down whenever I think about them. I know that life is going to be great from this point on, and how the future starts here with university and meeting new people, but I feel that ridding myself of negative energy is the only solution to me fully immersing myself into this new venture of my life! Therefore, I decided to create a blog post of how important it is to see through the past and come out the other-side a much more open minded human being!
To begin with, I have found the main negativity revolving around my life is trying to hold on to past friendships. I always find myself remembering the old times and laughs that I had with my then-friends, and wondering if there was anyway possible that those times could happen again. But then I begin to remind myself of the personality traits those people contained, both good and bad. I would remember arguments and moments in that friendship that made me think ‘do I even want this person in my life anymore?’. The truth is, if I had moments of questioning the friendship and whether I wanted them in my life then, I know that the answer to my wondering whether the friendship could ever happen again is not recommended. Also, I have been living my life perfectly fine, if not better without them involved in my day-to-day travels. I feel you have to just completely rid those people out of your life, even if that means to un-follow them on social media, walking another route to your destination, anything like that! These things take time but I feel that it will be worth it!
Another negativity in my life is caring too much what others think of me and whether I will be accepted the way I am. Now this is down to a confidence issue, but I have my own personal identity within me, my own way of living, opinions, interests, beliefs, I am unique! I should never be afraid of what others think, because I know that there are over 7 billion people on this planet and I know there will be a few of those who will accept the way I am! I already have a number of amazing people in my life who accept the way I was created and I can’t be more thankful and appreciative for them!
I have come a long way from the way I used to be. I am a happier and more optimistic human being. There a just a few little blips in the way of me being completely happy. I need to learn how to accept that the past is the past, and that I am me and should be proud of that. I should learn to change a negative situation into more of a positive no matter how difficult that may be. Don’t get me wrong, I was never on the path of being completely low and giving up, but I have indeed had my moments.
I understand what I need to do to become a happier individual and how to rid myself of this negative energy that constantly revolves any situation where I am alone and have time to think. People will always have a memory of the way you are or the way you used to be. Some of those you will never be able to change, but I am determined to make myself a better memory for people to remember me by. Of the person who I want to be remembered as; caring, loving and kind with a hint of fabulousity and wittiness.
As Goi Nasu once said:
“An entire sea of water can’t sink a ship unless it gets inside the ship. Similarly, the negativity of the world can’t put you down unless you allow it to get inside you.”
I hope you enjoyed this quick blog post! Thank you for reading! xxx